Finding Myself In My Dad.

Hey girls! It's Jamilya once again. I'm here with another post just to really let you girls know what's going on with me. Well, this month God has been dealing with me a lot about myself. I'm the type who is always there when someone needs me & I'm the one who is always giving advice &praying for others. Well, one day I was in my room & I was just talking to God. All of a sudden I just asked "Dad, what happened to me? I used to have all of these dreams & goals, but somewhere along the line I lost them. What happened?!" So, I was just sitting there & it's like God was saying to me "surrender". I'm like okay God, I've told You I surrender before so many times, but I'll say it again. Well, I said it, sung it, & listened to songs that were talking about surrendering, but God said that wasn't enough. You see, God wanted me to FULLY surrender & give Him all of me totally.
That next day at church my pastor preached a message called "F.Y.I. - Fixing Your Innerself". I promise you that message wasn't for nobody up in that church but ME! lol He was saying you've given your time to everyone else & their problems, & you've forgotten about yourself. Your dreams & goals are just gone. WHAT HAPPENED?!? I was like whoa Jesus! lol It was confirmation that I needed to completely surrender & get back to what God has for me. We had an altar call & I took my mom with me. I cried & cried. The tears wouldn't stop flowing. I told God okay this is it for real. I'm done with my past & everybody in it. I'm done chasing & worrying about other folks. What matters the most is my relationship & my purpose with You.
Since then, I don't have the desires I used to. I'm becoming this person....it's wonderful how God is showing me things everyday. I'm more focused on MY life & MY relationship with Him. I sing & somewhere I lost my passion for my gift, but God is restoring me & my gift. I'm singing everyday & I'm falling in love with my gift more & more. I'm dreaming more & focusing on my purpose. Each day I just get so happy because my Dad is the G R E A T E S T! I'm calling Him Dad more because I'm becoming that close with Him. He's so good! Ah He's good! In Psalm 52:8 it says "But I am like an olive tree flourishing in the house of God. I trust in God's UNFAILING love for ever & EVER!" & then verse 9 says "For what you have done I will ALWAYS praise you in the presence of your faithful people. & I will hope in your name, for your name is good." 
He's good y'all! Ahh, I just get so giddy! lol God is amazing & each day I thank Him for that day He told me to fully surrender. I'm working on me & my relationship with Him. He's amazing! I keep saying that, but He really is! I pray that you girls realize that your relationship with God is soooo important. When you totally hand Him your life you'll begin to see yourself flourishing like an olive tree. God is great & He's crazy about you! Just find yourself in Him & watch yourself grow :)


PS- That picture (above) was taken after church that Sunday. To me that picture means new beginnings & moving forward with my Dad. When I look at that picture I see God's love for me. That picture is really special to me.


-Jamilya