Patiently Waiting♥

   I've never been the girl that always felt the need to have a boyfriend. I've only had one real boyfriend & I fell deep for Him. After God ended the relationship, it took me a while, like 2 years, to realize that he wasn't God's best for me. I've been single for a some years now & people are always like "when are you going to find you a boyfriend?" Honestly, the pressure used to be so high that I would find myself crushing on guys for like no reason. I would just say I had a crush on a guy just so that I could make people relax.

   Now, I am totally over that. A lot of girls say that they can't wait to have a boyfriend. They can't wait to have a guy that loves her for who she is. They can't wait for that guy that won't cheat & hurt her. Honestly, I've found that guy & His love saved my life, literally. Yes, I'm talking about Jesus. When I tell people this, some laugh & I don't understand why they laugh. I don't say that Jesus is all the man I need because I can't get a boyfriend, or because I'm like totally against being in a relationship, but I say it because He really truly is! I am young & He is the one that I should be focused on until He feels that the time is right. 

"An unmarried woman or virgin is concerned about the Lord’s affairs: Her aim is to be devoted to the Lord in both body and spirit." (1 Corinthians 7:34)

   I've come to the point where I realize that God has an amazing guy out there for me & I'm willing to wait for him. I know that He's not coming now because God wants to work on me first. I'm not ready for a relationship & to be honest, tons of girls aren't either. So many of our girls are doing so poorly in school & suffering with low self esteem because they've been in these "relationships" that do nothing but leave them empty. I don't want that for myself & I don't want that for you!

   I told God that I would wait for the man that He has for me. I told God that I would save my body for my husband. I told God that I wouldn't settle for just anything anymore. I told God that I will patiently wait for the man of my dreams. 

   If you find yourself wanting to be loved, just think about how Jesus died on the cross for you. The next time you think about wanting to be in a relationship, just think about how God desires you to be in a relationship with Him. You are God's princess & you deserve far more that what any boy can give you right now. If the guy doesn't push you closer to God, than He doesn't need your heart. All God wants for you is the best! 

   I'm determined to wait for God's best. I don't want to get tied up with no one else while I wait. Right now, God is my focus. His love consumes me so much that the thought of being with a guy right now is pointless. I will wait until I get to hold someone's hand. I will wait for that one that will hold me while I cry. I will wait for that one that will love me regardless of how I look & how I act. I will wait for that one that will pull me closer to God. I will wait for that one that was predestined for me. If its two, five, seven or even ten years from now, I will patiently wait for him.

-Jamilya.